Disabled House Husband
Being a disabled house husband gives me a sense of fulfillment that up until I became one I didn’t know I was missing. I have never been a self motivated man. That has never been the way I created or accomplished anything with a few exceptions. As time has gone on with self reflection the true need for self discipline has become evident. I recently read a book called Atomic Habits. The idea is to start small habits for yourself and over a period of one year your life will be dramatically different if you were able to stick to your simple habits. After reading the book I thought about what I needed to do in one day to feel accomplished and happy. Some days I get things done and some I don’t. It’s funny. I remember a speech from Will Smith where he talked about choosing to do things that aren’t in your own best interest. The idea spoke to me because I overthink everything and I am my own worst enemy.
I’ve been writing more and I don’t know why I stopped or slowed down.
I always say I want to do this or I need to do that but it rarely gets done. When the task is completed it always takes longer than desired. When a writing project comes up I always dread it I think because I doubt my abilities. I never think it will be good, resulting in doubting myself even more than before. When I finally start time goes away, my heart races, my fingers move from the muscle memory that I have heard about my whole life and when I’m done before I think about what others will think I feel accomplished and emotionally refreshed. Another book I really enjoyed and it helped me was “Breaking The Habit of Being Yourself” by Dr. Joe Dispenza. The idea isn’t to change who you are completely but to interrupt the bad patterns and replace them with what you know you should be doing. Having a growth mindset where you believe anything is possible for you as long as you’re willing to put in the work and implementing habits that will get you there are two powerful tools that will change your life. Learning responsibility has changed the trajectory of my mindset that I didn’t think was possible. When you doubt yourself for so long and implant negative thoughts into your mind it can become very difficult to rewire your brain. I enjoy being looked to for answers and being someone another person has faith in since I don’t remember having a lot of faith in myself. I’m responsible for taking care of my wife and our dog Bailey and I love and appreciate the role it’s given me, I grew up feeling I couldn’t take care of things on my own and the last couple years has not only proven that I can but I believe it’s made me a better man.